Change bites.

If seeing millions of Egyptians cry for another Pharaone surprises you, you were too optimistic. There is a reason why Egypt has practically achieved nothing during the last three years. There is a reason why the people seem to have forgotten the purpose and goal behind the 25th of January’s revolution. There is a reason why the people are once again asking for the military to regain control. Egyptians are not fans of change.

I remember watching the people once barge into Carrefour during the revolution hoping to go home with as many supplies as possible. The thing is these people didn’t look poor to me, but rather just simple providers for their families. The reason they chose to take advantage of the then state of chaos (the state revolutionaries chose over surrendering to the regime) was because they believed nothing was going to change. Just a bunch of overly excited young Egyptians who thought they could end the tyrant’s rule; an epiphany. These people thought they better secure a short period of their miserable future before things go back to normal, and I can’t really blame them now.

I remember when everyone were out cleaning the streets with hope of a brighter future, trying to fix whatever was in their control. But it didn’t last long.. Apparently, a more civilized way of living was too much for the people to handle. Some may argue I’m being too shallow, but overlooking the little things continues to be our biggest mistake. Throwing trash in the garbage cans isn’t that difficult to do, is it? Asking the people to drive more cautiously and to follow the very basic laws isn’t that difficult to do, is it? No, but the institution has taken its toll on the people. Apart from those who participated in the 25th of January (and I’d like to mention that unfortunately I was not one of them, and was even against it at first), we Egyptians suffer from metathesiophobia; we fear change, and it could go back to something as simple as waiting for the light to turn green because it shows how unwilling the people are to make a difference as long as their own lives remain unaffected, untouched.

When Morsi first took charge, millions were already unwilling to grant him the benefit of the doubt. Why? It wasn’t because El-Ikhwan were already destroying Egypt, but because we did not know what was coming. Those who supported Morsi hoped he would ‘mix’ Islam with all aspects of life, because Islam represented safety and order. On the other hand, those who opposed him right from the start knew that if this was truly the case, it would change everything.

Now, back to the present. What does El-Sisi represent? El-Sisi represents similar times to Mubarak’s. El-Sisi represents stability (maybe for another 30 years). El-Sisi represents safety (“the man with the iron fist”). How do you say no to that after all we’ve witnessed? How do you say no to that after Egypt have suffered from a mini civil war? He’s the hero that ended El-Ikhwan’s rule. He is the one that can let things go back to the way they were, and he’s the one that can once again restore Egypt’s safe streets and political stability. Is opposing a presidential candidate like that man, the people’s hero, even possible? Yes.

For me, seeing El-Sisi as Egypt’s new president would destroy many hopes and dreams. It is illogical, and it baffles my mind. How did Egyptians manage to celebrate on the 25th of January the fall of an Egyptian dictator by promoting the election of possibly another one? One who used the people’s naivety, fear, and desperation to spill Egyptian blood. Some may have deserved to die, and my hatred towards El-Ikhwan knows no limits, but choosing to make them ALL suffer was by no means an ideal, reasonable solution, and “an eye for an eye makes the world blind.” (Gandhi)

Again, for those who may argue I’m being too pessimistic, I say power corrupts and there isn’t a better example than the list of Egyptian rulers. We have always been cornered into choosing between freedom and safety, as Mubarak would say: يا أنا يالفوضي.

Egyptians have already forgotten those who have fallen victims of selfishness and fear over the past three years because they chose safety over freedom a long time ago. The ones willing, hoping for true change are slowly disappearing, leaving behind the brainwashed, illiterate, institutionalized Egyptians to take over. And you wonder if Egypt will ever rise to power again?

I don’t know if there is anyone out there who can turn Egypt into a better place, and do so fairly. All I know is that you don’t start building a pyramid from the top. Whether we like it or not, the people once voted for Mubarak and Morsi. Our problems were never limited to the one ruling from Egypt’s throne, they go much deeper.

End this fear of change and let the people know that they don’t live to serve dictators, or else admit that democracy, if it ever existed, has failed. If the people are happy with allowing a dictator to take control over their lives in return for safe streets, then so be it. Nevertheless, don’t expect me to be a part of it. Don’t expect me to stay in the shadows. I was not born to stay silent nor to suffer from others’ mistakes. And, ironically, I’m not changing back to the way I used to be.